7 posts tagged “job”

i kinda feel like i want to crawl out of my skin while sitting in this cubicle...i fantasize about walking out the front door of the office and never coming back.

but i have bills to pay. hrumph.

i haven't slept through the night this whole week. i've been waking up between 1:30 and 3:30. i'd wake up and then my mind would just start going a million miles a minute about what i can do to change my current employment situation and what i could've done differently in my last interview and what i can do to get the jobs that i've recently sent resumes in to. i've never felt so out of place and so unhappy at a job before. and i really shouldn't complain, it's not like i'm laying railroad tracks or anything. i sit in a cube putting together presentations and eStores of promotional products.

not getting that marketing director job really threw me for a loop. i think i had put too much hope into it. i began thinking about what my life would be like if i got the job and how lovely it would be to have my own office, with a door that closes. i have a bad tendency to get my hopes up too high about lots of things. i had my heart in it too deep.

brief interruption: the IT guy just came by to get an order number from me and he referred to his brain as a "volatile storage unit" while the post-it note he wrote the number on is a "non-volatile storage unit." ah, IT guys.

anyway - i'm really exhausted, both mentally and physically, and i just want to call it quits. with everything job related. i've been applying for jobs i don't even really want just because i want to get out of here so bad. i know that's totally wrong on a number of levels, but that's how desperate i am to get out of here.

keep on keepin' on. something wonderful will come my way. i just need to hang tight until it presents itself. i hope it doesn't take too long because i'm getting uncomfortably restless.

the cfo of the company, chris, doesn't like me for whatever reason. all i know for certain is that she thinks i'm incompetent and our personalities are like oil and water. which is fine, i never got along with those math and science types anyway.

heidi, the director of operations, and chris are bff's. heidi used to think i was super amazing and wonderful until chris started working here and they started giggling and trading best friend necklaces. now, i am the recipient of condecending e-mails not only from chris, but now also from heidi as well. they are the type of e-mails that correct my usage of words even though they know what i mean. see below - this just happened about 2 minutes ago.

me: heidi, we have -5 pieces on hand for this item, can we please get another inventory order in for these to fill the orders we have in the system?

heidi (who copies about 6 other people): it does not say we have -5 pieces on hand. it says we have 30 pieces on hand with 35 pieces on order. it's -5 available, not on hand.

whatever, she knew what i meant. no need to make me look like an idiot.

i need to get out of here asap. i feel like it's high school all over again and the popular girls still don't like me.

so i just got back from my interview. i think it went well?

i'm not quite sure. it only lasted a half hour which is either really good or really bad. we covered all the bases as they relate to my experience and whatnot so i don't think he was hurrying out of the interview. there were never any awkward moments or times when he had a funny look on his face or anything. i feel like i'm pretty good at reading other people's expressions.

he gave me a tour of the facility. we seemed to get along really well and he did ask when i could start which is a plus. i saw him jotting some stuff down on my resume but i couldn't read it. he said that they're looking to have a decision by the end of the second week in january. at least i know. so this way i'm not sitting next to the phone all day waiting for a call like last time.

i hate knowing that he has other interviews. i wish i could meet the other people just to see what i'm up against.

i don't know. we had good chemistry and the company seems really great to work for. i'm totally into working there and i do think he liked me. i guess we'll see!

...today at 1:00.

the last one went awesome but i apparently didn't get the job - although i'm certain i was over qualified for what they were looking for. it was a bit of a slacker job that, in retrospect, i'm a little disappointed in myself that i would've been happy with something that was not beneficial to my career in any way.

this interview is for a marketing director for a company that distributes and manufactures equipment for firefighters. it's a definite step up and the title of marketing director would be great on a resume. i generally ace interviews, and i've prepared to the fullest extent. i've made mental notes of the things that i left out of the last interview (like asking when they'll be making a decision, which would've alleviated a lot of anxiety).

keeping my fingers crossed...i have a good feeling about this one.

i had my interview this morning at 11...it went awesome.

when they start talking benefits, salary and when you can start, it's usually a good sign. i went into this interview not really knowing what kind of position this was going to be. turns out it is more up my alley than i thought.

it's a marketing assistant position, so there's a lot of ho-hum report running and that sort of thing, but there's also some graphic design work that needs to be done and i went to school for that for 2 years. they also have a lot of meetings and dinners with physicians and they need someone to help set that up as well, so there's an event planning part of the job as well.

they were a little concerned with my salary requirements, but they thought they could get the hr department to adjust what they had set as the salary for this position given my experience and capabilities.

and it's 5 minutes from my house instead of the 30.

he said he'd call me tonight either way on the salary thing...so it sounds like i'm in...just have to hang tight for a little bit.

i'm going to HATE to give my two weeks notice because i can't say all the things i'd like to about the people here. it'll be hard to bite my tongue. the problem is that there are a couple of people i work with whose jobs will become more difficult by my leaving and it just so happens that they are the nice ones.

michael peters, why would you leave me a message to set up an interview and not be around to answer your phone when i return your call and not return your messages either?

you're such a tease.

when you finally get a call about your resume, it becomes so much more real...

a nice sounding gentleman named michael peters from a company called advanced pain management would like to set up an interview. it's a marketing coordinator position. to be honest, i'm not really even sure what this job was necessarily even about...i sent the resume in a few weeks ago.

ah!

now i'm starting to feel weird about this...when you send out resume after resume and don't hear anything you start to forget about it and deal with the job you have. i have to call him back though...i passed up a wedding consultant job at david's bridal because i never called her back and i've been kicking myself in the ass ever since because i thought that job would be super fun.

i think what makes me feel weird is having to deceive my current employer in order to go to these interviews.